To being happy..
I miss the simple things. I miss being truely happy. I really do.
I think I've found it, then it's gone again.. hopefully that's not the case now.
I think I've really fallen for him. I can't get him out of my head..not that I would want to. I find myself constantly wishing we could spend more time together and just to be there for him and make him happy... That's a big thing for me, making the ones I love happy.
Let's hope things work out.
Life at home sucks...my mom's been kinda bitchy...and well, my dad is still his asshole-ish self.
I can't stand how horribly they play favorites. Take the past few days for instance...
My brother goes out w/ friends, stops by the house around 1-2 am and gets food out the freezer to go back out w/ them and eat, then comes home around 7am with a broken arm. What do they do? take him to the ER and not even say shit to him about being out all night. Tonight I go out w/ some friends to see a movie, which mom bitched about till I was picked up. I was 15 minutes late, so I called and was home 5 minutes after that. First thing when I walk in? I get bitched at about being a slacker with no fucking future and about how ungratful and irresponsible I am. So later tonight, I'm brushing my teeth, my bro's in his room. The folks come up to go to bed and what do I hear? not a word to me...however he gets" How's your arm? do you need anything? g'night, feel beter, love you" and " get some sleep, love you"
Not a fucking word to me.
I'm so sick of it.
I can't wait to get out...
I need to get out..
We have friday off..yay...I hope the long weekend means more time w/ him...I miss him..
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I think that's all anyone wants you know? Happiness. And then you have to look at your family. Let's face it. Your brother's not exactly batting 1000 in the brains department. They prolly figure he's already a lost cause so love him the best they can. You show promise. And potential. And they just want to make sure they push you the way they probably should have pushed your brother.
Me, you, Matt-->Potomac Mills?
Possibly, I'm trying to snag him for friday, but he still has school friday, just half a day..but I'll try lol
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